“She’s perfect”
Tonight I filled out a form about Holly. I had to say if she could do this or that and as I filled it out I wrote the letter “n” a lot. To be fair it wasn’t an age specific form so there would have been a lot of no’s no matter what, but there were some no’s I wished were yeses. I found myself a little sad for a moment, but I quickly remembered that those no’s would be yeses! Holly might learn something slower or later but she will learn! I can tell you she knows how to do a lot of things that I couldn’t live without. She looks at me while she nurses, I mean a full on stare into my eyes look and it melts my heart. 
😍 She still loves to hold my finger and nothing makes me happier. Her smile can melt a thousand hearts. She’s learning to giggle and it’s adorable. She adores her brother and loves to watch him. She’s so obsessed with the TV that she will literally roll and turn anyway possible to see it (it makes for great therapy 
😂). She’s perfect.
Holly is different, but she is more alike than she is different. And she was created by our almighty Father just as he desired her to be. The journey that Matt
and I are on isn’t exactly as we planned, but we are so happy and so grateful God didn’t come down and ask us to plan out every detail of our life. I’m grateful for the surprises. If I could have planned my entire life I wouldn’t have asked for Holly; I wouldn’t have known I should. I love her beyond any words could ever try to convey; yet I try to put my love into words because one day I want to look back and remember what it felt like to love her when she was brand new. I hope Holly has many, many years on this Earth, but more importantly I pray she comes to know Gods love and when she does leave this Earth I pray it is Jesus’ arms that greet her.
*I took this picture right before I wrote this. As I typed this out she laid right beside me. I could feel her breath on my arm. Every moment I’m with her I feel tremendous love and happiness; tonight was especially special, just like her. 
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so beautiful!
she is beautiful! and oh yes she will learn everything God has to her to learn. every child learns at their own pace, I said and still say that about my tristen, no sadness just celebrations ! she is amazing! she is blessed and a blessing!
Beautifully written. So glad God gave us our gifts. So glad to be on this journey with you and Holly!